another type of mask

i saw someone the other day who had read my blog (i didn't even know this person knew i had a blog). this is someone i don’t know too well (more importantly someone who doesn’t know me well), and he mentioned the fact that some of my posts were quite negative, and he didn’t know i had a side like that. hmmm, i have always written these posts with people who know me in mind. i never thought about how they’d seem to people who don’t know my personality. i guess i had also used this blog as somewhat of a brain dump; i just wrote as a way of dumping what's on my mind without thinking it was negative or positive or otherwise. i also think that sometimes i may be trying to be funny, and it comes across as negativity. who knows. so here’s a disclaimer for all those reading who don’t know me that well: while this blog does represent some of my thoughts, they are not my only thoughts. this blog is, in a way, like a giant mask: i only “show” the parts of me i want to…and quite frankly, i have no intention of sharing my innermost thoughts and feelings with all of cyberworld; those are reserved for special people. so if you don’t know me, just know that there’s more to my personality than just what’s here.

still, he shared a very thought-provoking comment. am i negative without meaning to be (or w/o realizing it)? food for thought...